It hit me. It hit me, that I only have about 48 hours left with him. These last couple nights, I’ve cried myself to sleep just to get the tears out so I don’t start bawling in front of anyone during the day. I’m always getting mad at the littlest things and just start crying whenever I think about daily life after Thursday. I’m trying so hard to think of positive things, but what is there? What kind of positive vibes come from someone you truly care about leaving to the side of the country? I don’t know.

I can’t laugh this off anymore. I can’t just shove the problem aside anymore. I have to face this now, I have to catch the reality that we’re really going to be living in differently.

wishing he was just lying about moving away just to scare me